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Trauma: what stays after it happened
An accident, an assault, years of violence at home: how trauma affects the body and memory, what is expected in the first weeks, and when treatment helps.
What counts as trauma
Trauma is what stays with you after a situation in which you felt you could die, be seriously hurt or be sexually assaulted, or in which you saw that happen to someone else. It can be a single event: an armed robbery, a car crash, a rape, the violent death of someone close. It can also be something that went on for months or years, such as abuse in childhood, violence at home or living under threat.
There is no ruler for whether what you went through "was bad enough". Two people in the same accident can react in very different ways, and that says nothing about strength or character. People who grew up with violence at home often do not even call it trauma, because it was what home was like. What counts is the effect it has on you today.
The first few weeks
After something frightening, it is common to spend days or weeks with your body on alert. You sleep badly, jump at every noise, the scene comes back uninvited, your appetite goes, you cannot concentrate. Some people feel a lot of anger, others feel numb, as if they were watching their own life from outside. It is the brain’s alarm still ringing after the danger has gone.
For most people these reactions ease over about a month, especially with sleep, routine and people around. It helps to go back to your usual activities bit by bit, eat at regular times, avoid using alcohol to get to sleep, and talk to people you trust, only as much as you want. If you were sexually assaulted less than three days ago, go to a health service or an emergency department now, even if you do not want to report it: there is treatment that prevents infections and pregnancy and only works within that window.
When the alarm does not switch off
If after a month the reactions are still strong and getting in the way of sleep, work and relationships, it may be post-traumatic stress disorder, or PTSD. Its first mark is intrusions: memories that push in, nightmares, flashbacks in which your body reacts as if it were happening again. The second is avoidance: you steer clear of the street, the smell, the topic and the people that remind you of what happened.
The third is hypervigilance, the body always on guard: sitting with your back to the wall, checking the door three times, snapping over small things, never quite relaxing. The fourth changes how you think and feel: guilt ("I should have fought back"), shame, the certainty that nowhere is safe, and a numbness that takes the joy out of things you used to love. Sometimes PTSD only shows up months or years later, when something else touches the wound.
When a memory floods in
In a flashback your mind goes back there, but your body is here. The job is to bring your attention back to the present through your senses. Press your feet into the floor and feel your weight. Tell yourself, out loud and quietly if you can: "this is a memory, I am in my living room, today is Tuesday, I am safe now". Look around and name five things you can see. Hold something ice cold, or splash cold water on your face.
Tell someone you trust what tends to set off your memories and agree on what they can do: speak to you in a calm voice, say your name, remind you where you both are. Once it has passed, notice what came just before: a smell, a tone of voice, a date. Knowing your triggers helps you prepare. The goal, though, is not to run from them forever, because too much avoidance keeps the fear alive.
Treatment works, and you do not have to tell it all
The treatments with the strongest evidence for PTSD are trauma-focused talking therapies. In trauma-focused CBT, you and your therapist approach the memory gradually, at an agreed pace, until it loses its alarm, and you look again at the conclusions the trauma left behind, such as "it was my fault". In EMDR, you recall parts of the event while following side-to-side movements with your eyes. The memory is still there, but it hurts less.
Many people put off therapy because they fear having to tell the whole story, in full detail, at the very first appointment. It does not work like that. You decide what you say and when. A good professional starts with safety and stability, and only moves towards the memory once you have the resources for it. If you still live with the person who hurts you, or if thoughts of dying come up, safety comes first: the support step in this track shows crisis contacts.
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